Endless crossroads and an apology

Okay, I maybe over reacting but I must admit that I hated myself as much as I hated the world that I saw. Self help online articles and subscriptions from life mentors like Mastin Kipp and Joyce Meyer have helped me a lot. I am not claiming that I'm a totally changed person but I'm a work in progress. Life is a journey of endless crossroads. We always have to choose which is the best route to our desired destination. Sometimes, a crossroad will end at only one point but most of the time, it will take you into different places. I was lost, and still I am taking that long cut to become the person that I wanna be. I have taken a difficult path hoping that it will be worth it at the end. It is worth it. If only I was wiser enough, but what happened is meant to happen. One thing we should know is life lessons are way more expensive compared to lessons that is being taught in any schools. I am glad that I have my family that never fail to motivate me. Give me a pool of mana to regain my power. Always remind me that I have a pair of well functioning hands and feet. God also never fail me. He gave me tons of trials but at the end, he always show the pot of gold.

For the person who have failed me bigtime, Thank you! I realized that I am stupendous! I found out that I am strong enough to dig a hectare of graveyard just to know the truth. I have clearly identified the people that are willing to join me, whatever face I decide to wear. Soon, like other people who have suffered from loss, I will find myself again and the moment I get my senses back, I will be ready to share myself again to someone without any hesitations. Defining your priorities in life is a very difficult task. It took me years to have finally curved my priorities on the corner of my mind. My heart maybe resting for now, but soon, it will be back on track.

For the people that I have genuinely loved during my journey into the crossroad that gave me a new brand, I apologize. I'm sorry for being cold. I'm sorry for not inviting you into my celebration of new life. We had the time of our lives, and I will surely miss your company. But just like the famous novel, Harry Potter, it has to end. The love is still there. However, things in life are temporary. Even after its ending, we will feel very lonely and hopeless. But then again, God is just asking us to wait for better things to come alng our way.

Crossroads may never end. Our fuel may ran out. Our patience may be exhausted. But at the end of the day, when we see a familiar crossroad, we already know what to do.

Time of our lives

As a human, we all have our dreams and we do everything that we can to make those dreams come true. Most of us are very busy making a living and spend a little time for romance, partying and enjoying little things that can make us happy. Most of us are focused on our careers. Lucky are those who reached 70, 80, 90 and 100 years of age. Life is indeed a battle versus time. 

One thing that I enjoy the most is watching fantasy and supernatural series. I feel like escaping from the reality whenever I watch those shows. One of the best for me is The Vampire Diaries. I always say that if a vampire really do exist, I will submit myself willingly as his prey and made him turn me into one. There are so many things that I wanna do. Being a vampire gives me an eternity of doing the things that I love to do without any time frame. I guess I'm becoming a freak. LOL

The show got a stupendous soundtrack. One of my favorite is shown below:

The character that I really love is Katerina Petrova. In modern times, she is called Katherine Pierce. I adore Nina Dobrev. I really wish to see her in person, in my lifetime. The character, Katherine is somehow similar to me. I felt the need of doing foolish and bad things just to survive a life and death situation. She love herself too much and as a vampire, it amplified. I'm not a bad person (LOL) But, I can amplify my capabilities, just to protect myself and my love ones.

I'm just wondering, that if I have an eternity, what would I do first? Many vampires in the show are full of regrets. If you have an eternity, would you have any regrets? Would you keep a journal or a blog for you to remember so many years of being alive and dead at the same time? Life is very mysterious. Watching fantasy shows creates an exit door of the physical reality into the world of fantasy, where problems are always being solved. However, when lessons in life are the main theme of all the story, that's where reality kicks in.

I hope many of you guys are watching the show. Stupendous it is! 2 thumbs up!

Our Angel

Since this is a newly born blog, I would like to feature a very cute little angel, who's also a new born. Paul Kristoff was born last Dec. 29, 2011. He is my nephew. Our family's first angel and first grandchild to my mom and dad. I'm pretty sure he will be spoiled.

He drinks milk every one and a half hour.

Babies doesn´t have a fixed sleeping habit yet. This boy always awakens when hungry.

Burp!

The fierce look is very normal. Wonder what are you thinking?

He loves the camera!

He poops aroung 3 or 4 times a day. Is that normal? LOL

My sister said that babies cannot see a full image yet. Everything is blurred.

I also wanna wave like a baby. I'm imagining how happy I was just playing with my 2 hands,

when I was a baby. LOL

I think the TV is what he is deciphering.

Babies´breath is one of my favorite smell. LOL

After burping he is set to sleep. :)

Then you may need to carry him again, wiggle and jiggle him until his eyes are fully closed.

When this baby was born, I only thought of one feeling. I feel envious. I wanna have my own baby. It should be asap and it should be stupendous! LOL

Hooray to the new beginning!

It's a bit sad to end a chapter in our lives but it's always a joy to start a new story.

A story filled with optimism.

A story that is so colorful.

A story that is dominated by happiness.

A story that is so dark, but at the end of the tunnel, you saw a brighter world.

A story that is told by photographs.

Life is so short. We are destined to be happy. Let us all keep the faith.

I am wonderful. I am great. I am stupendous!

(and this is my story)